Money.
By my best estimate, considering that Andrew's birthday and our 4th anniversary are in the next handful of months, I have approximately six months before I completely run out of money.
It has been over a year since I held a job. It has been almost as long since I stopped trying to look for one.
As a child, you're told that when you're done school, you get a job. The more school you complete, the more pleasant your job will be. This is a complete fabrication. My most optimistic outcomes include fast food or selling trinkets. I have a deep and resounding need to feel useful, and neither of those "careers" can fulfill that. I do not know what can.
I've tossed around the idea of starting my own business, but that's almost as unrealistic as expecting a wonderful job if you graduate from university. I have no business experience save for selling Avon products to friends and family. I would want to offer a service to people rather than a product. A product generally entails owning a shop, and I don't want that. I want to be helpful in some way. In some small way, that's why I considered going to college to become an esthetician. Makeup and nails are of little interest to me, however. It's the skincare stuff that I enjoy learning about.
How would I even begin a business relating to skincare, though? I feel like my only option would be to sell products, which isn't what I want. I wish there was a dermatologist-lite field. Not qualified to handle real medical issues or prescribe things, but knowledgeable enough to recommend how to take care of everyday skin problems. Large pores, blackheads, oily skin... Dermatologists have more important things to fix, don't they? Can't there be someone like me who knows how to fix these problems and can get paid to help other people with them?
I know what ingredients to look for if you have oily skin, or dry skin, or acne-ridden skin, or combination skin. I know which ingredients warrant a test patch for sensitive skin. I can even recommend specific products. Is there a job that fits this? Is there even a market for this? Some kind of bizarre esthetics counselor?